Mental Health

Grounding: A Coping Tool for When I Get Triggered

When my inner child, Penelope, gets triggered, my body, mind, and emotions automatically catapult into fight or flight mode. Her number one impulse is to protect herself. She is reacting to perceived harm. These knee-jerk reactions are sometimes beyond my control. They happen so quickly that I, the adult Barbara, don’t have time to reassure… Continue reading Grounding: A Coping Tool for When I Get Triggered

Taking Care of Myself

Changing How I Relate to Food

Since childhood, I have stuffed my emotions and memories down with food. The more they would try to surface, the more I ate. I didn’t just eat – I inhaled my food. I shoved it down as fast as I could, barely chewing and hardly tasting it. For decades, I have lived my life numb,… Continue reading Changing How I Relate to Food

My Poems

Poem: River of Secrets

River of Secrets She balances at the edge of a colossal canyon, carved by the fierce river of her stolen soul. Spirit whispers to her upon eagle wings, guides her to take the plunge. She is safe, up here in the mid-day sun; its brightness hides what she fears to feel. Below lies the burden… Continue reading Poem: River of Secrets

Mental Health

How Do I Heal from Trauma?

For the past decade, my psychological and spiritual healing has been an upward spiral of understanding and acceptance as I come to terms with how my trauma has influenced my current belief system about myself and the world, and how it continues to affect my thoughts, feelings, and behavior in the present. I have learned… Continue reading How Do I Heal from Trauma?

Mental Health

Disconnect

Perhaps you have experienced occasions when you’ve “zoned out”. Times when your mind was somewhere else, maybe you’ve even lost track of time. These are usually harmless instances when one simply drifts away for a moment or two, as when one daydreams, or finds a conversation or a lecture boring. I experience symptoms of a… Continue reading Disconnect

Readers' Poems

The Shadow of Fear by Alexis Rose

The Shadow of Fear The shadow of fear disguises itself as a branch without leaves waving in the dark of night. Or the touch of the wind grazing my cheeks when I turn a corner. It’s the sound of a car rolling slowly to a stop behind me. Or the person I see walking in… Continue reading The Shadow of Fear by Alexis Rose

Personal Power

A Stranger to Myself

Have you ever looked in the mirror and wondered who was staring back at you? It’s only within the last several years that I have begun to really get a sense of who I am. As a survivor of violence, incest, and rape – trauma which had begun at the age of eight – I… Continue reading A Stranger to Myself

My Poems

Poem: Penelope

Penelope You came into this world a being of Light. Shadow People sought to make your Light their own. You hid your Light from those who caused you harm, buried it deep down inside. But you buried it so deep you forgot your true self. You came to believe the Shadow People – came to… Continue reading Poem: Penelope

Personal Power

A Journey of Light and Love

I believe that we all come from the same Source of Light and Love, that we are spiritual beings who have chosen to come here to learn and to grow spiritually. For a very long time, I have felt a disconnect with this Light and Love. I had become a victim at the hands of… Continue reading A Journey of Light and Love

My Poems

Poem: Hypervigilance

Hypervigilance She surfs the edge of dreams dares not sleep too deep the Bogeyman lurks in every shadow, eager to tear flesh from bone. Snap of twig outside the window she bolts up grasps the knife beneath her pillow heart racing ears tuned eyes search darkness. No one’s there she tells herself, curls down to… Continue reading Poem: Hypervigilance